The last few years have been difficult. Things have finally eased off. Stress levels have reduced and life seems to have gotten into a better flow. So why do I still struggle. I’m trying everything to improve my state of mind , my lifestyle and relationships. However one little thing happens and my head can’t take it. I’v started exercising 2 to three times a few. Eating more healthy. Make time for friends Fun activity’s with my children Reading Practice mindfulness Deep breathing Trying new experiences Opened up to new relationships But one bit of information/news sends my head spiralling back. Back into self doubt and loathing, over thinking the past. I can’t change the past. Looking back I did do the best I could at the time. But this feeling of why wasn’t I (why am I) not worth the effort. The time of A conversation. To tell me they where not happy, to try to work things out. When the only person I have ever loved and felt ...
notes on my messed up life